I'm learning more and more about how twisted Tomoko is. I still care for her and want her to succeed in life, but I can't hang out around her if she keeps doing and saying things that I'm this uncomfortable with.
|Tomoko wanted her younger cousin to think she had|
hickeys, so she used a vacuum cleaner on herself. Her
ideas of what's "cool" and "mature" for a high school girl
are a little off... (ep 8)
I still care about Tomoko as much as for any character in an anime drama. I wish I could continue with her through her painful high school journey. But I cannot keep company with her. It just isn't good for me. It seems like each episode, we see more of her erotic fantasies and habits. Sure, very few of those are explicitly shown. In fact, I have no doubt that much of it would have gone way over my head two years ago. But it's enough. I must say goodbye, despite my previous resolution to watch to the end.
It's been a while since I last decided to drop an anime halfway through due to personal convictions. In fact, the last one I recall was Gankutsuou: the Count of Monte Cristo a few years ago. Even then, I only marked it as "stalled," with the thought that someday, when I was a little older, it might be okay for me. There have been some anime that I dropped after only one or two episodes. There have also been some that I probably should have dropped but didn't. Unfortunately, Watamote has crossed the line.
To be clear, this is not meant to be a judgmental statement in anyway. I'm not quitting Watamote because Tomoko did something I firmly believe to be wrong. If that was the only criteria, my list of watchable shows, anime or live action, would be very short. I'm quitting because I don't like that stuff littering my mind. Some Christians may be able to watch this show without it affecting the purity of their thoughts. I don't think I can. For similar reasons, I've unsubscribed from YouTube channels and marked songs as "disliked" on Pandora. I've even considered unfollowing Twitter feeds that have a very high frequency of R-rated tweets (that's a harder decision, especially if I've had any interaction with the person). My personal strengths lie in my mind, which means my weaknesses do, too. I'm not great at dwelling only on "whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable" (Philippians 4:8). I just hope that, for me, dropping shows like Watamote will help the images in my mind stay clean. It's a small step, and I know I could benefit from greater discernment with what I watch. But it's a step, at least.
So, farewell, Tomoko. I wish you well. If I have the time, I'll keep up with you by reading other people's blogs and tweets.
To the reader: different shows impact different people in different ways. There are some TV-MA level anime that seem to leave no damage to my mind and conscience, but would scar others. Same vice-versa. How do you feel about Watamote? Any comments on the subject of discernment in what you watch?